on a side note

when i was young i used to say aloud "Crocodile !" when i say those big drains
whatever you call them the ones that has fishes in them sometimes u know (esp the one at kembangan mrt, in the mornings when there's more water you can really see many fishes, i even saw a super big fish one day when the water was rather full after a night of heavy rain)

LOL

dunno why but i just kinda remembered it and wanted to share
i just realised that i've just grown up so suddenly
frm the little girl who's always clinging to her mom and thinks there's a crocodile every pool of murky green water
to now

it's kinda sad

O_O

omg i feel like closing down my fb acc
srsly i don't even use it
and pple are actually really trying to communicate with me using it

wtf

omg last day of work end of this mth
T_T gonna miss the $9/hr pay, with $10 shift bonus
and the routine of going to work
going to ot
and being quiet with all the guys
and T_T i dunno why but i'm actually feeling sad

but if i'm to go poly (if i get in) i have to quit now
T_T

sadded

will go back there to work nxt time if i have the chance agn

omg

i'm 20

so OLD

AHHHHH

shit, i've not even achieved anything significant

tsk

i'm still dreaming of my farm in a faraway land

:)

i have

scary mood swings

seriously

it's like

whoa

even i'm a little creeped out by myself

i think i may be a little schizo

O_________________O

but of course if i really were i wldn't know

and absolutely wldn't admit it

therefore i have to say i'm pretty fine

just that my mood swings are ...

cheers :)

there, no need to be happy anymore

and i fucking didn't even realise i spelt life wrongly

fucking idiot arsehole

fuck i really don't wanna go sim

life sucks

FUCK WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I JUST RETAKE A LVLS LAST YEAR THEN I WON'T BE IN SUCH A FUCKED UP STATE WITH ALL MY FUCKING WRITING AND LANGUAGE SKILLS ALL FUCKING DOWN THE DRAIN

i know... it's ironic that i say that life's too short to be unhappy
but then how can you be happy when your life sucks worse then dying
in this fucking limbic state where nothing is certain

it's the menstrual talking
but it's all true

I <3 Pokemon

i just applied agn for ntu nus and smu

HAHA it's just gonna be a waste of the application fee
i know
but i've not paid it yet
still wondering whether i shld bother

will apply for sim too

tsk

but what i really hope is for np to accept me omg

becoz no matter what, i still got a really bad impression of sim
srsly spending so much money and getting a degree that's not that outstanding

O_O but of course if np doesn't accept me i wld have no choice

going to be my last day of work the end of march
bittersweet
i really kinda don't fit with the peeps there
but the pay is sweet and i will kinda miss going to work everyday

tsk

nothing lasts forever of course
i must move on